I entered Wayside as a frail, shattered, lost soul. I was 25 and had been using drugs and alcohol for 15 years. Wayside was my tenth treatment program.
I had no hope left and was full of shame and guilt. I faced many challenges during my stay. The most difficult of those being my son moving to Washington to live with my uncle. With the support and compassion of the staff, I began to find myself.
For the first time in my life I became honest with myself and in turn was able to be honest with others as well. I learned how to show myself compassion and began chipping away at the walls I had built around me. I allowed other women into my life and we shared our pain and suffering as well as our joy and happiness. I made amazing friends that have continued to be a part of my life in recovery and have become the best friendships I have ever experienced in my life.
I left Wayside and entered sober housing, which in the past had been a step I had refused to take. My three-month stay in sober housing was where the real test began. I was forced to make a choice. Every woman that came through my sober house relapsed and I began to comprehend the multitude of emotions that the outside world feels when a recovering addict goes back out. I stood strong and continued on. I upped my meetings when times were hard and followed advice and got a sponsor.
“My life isn’t perfect and because of the support and compassion of Wayside, I have found a way to manage my life without the use of drugs and alcohol. I can handle anything life throws at me as long as I don’t pick up that first drink or drug. Today, I am a worthwhile woman and I deserve to be loved, and respected, and sober!”– Caitlin F.
I have adopted a way of life that, 15 months ago, was completely foreign to me.
My son moved back to Minnesota with my grandparents that November, and by the end of January, I had built up enough trust with them to move back in as well. I had given up on school in the midst of my addiction and decided that it just wasn’t for me, however a dear friend I had made through my treatment process kindly suggested that I go back to college for my LADC, and after about 24 hours of thinking I decided it was a beautiful idea.
I am currently in my first semester at Century College for my Associates in Science for Chemical Dependency. I work part-time as a server, attend school full-time, and attend 4-5 meetings per week. I sponsor women and I have a sponsor. I work the steps and take suggestions. I have adopted a way of life that, 15 months ago, was completely foreign to me. I have custody of my son and we live together as a happy little family.